"when there's a hello, there's always a goodbye"
that is so unbelievably true.
you're probably getting settled in with your trainee friends
in a totally new world with totally new people doing totally new stuff.
how does that feel? i would love to be in your position right now.
i'm going to miss you, so so much.
i'm going to miss you randomly calling me or IMing me just to bug me.
i told you so many times that you were so annoying
and you told me that some day i'd miss it and i guess that day came.
the most randomest knock came on my door yesterday
and who would've thought that you would be right in front of my doorstep.
just describing it seems like a stupid fairy tale
but it was one of those moments you wish would never happen.
to keep a promise that you made two years ago,
to stay up til three in the morning to keep this promise,
to write a letter that made me read it ten times,
to make me cry after each time i read it.
and while my tears will out of control , you were already gone.
i couldn't tell you i was sorry for all the bitchy stuff i did to you.
i couldn't tell you that i was thankful to have a friend like you.
i couldn't tell you that i was going to miss your random everything.
i couldn't tell you that i loved you so much.
i couldn't say a lot of things when you were there.
i guess this is reality, so thank you.
i know you read my blogs and i hope you have time to read this.
if you do become successful and make it on stage,
just remember, i'll probably be watching you on my computer screen
eating chips and saying "i was once best friends with that person."
no, scratch that, "i AM best friends with that person."
you told me to forget you and to think of you as a bratty soontobe sm celeb.
but you know what? i know deep inside you're not bratty,
i know deep inside that you're not really a celebrity,
i know that deep inside you, you're hoping for me to never forget you.
no matter what you say, you're still an idiot in my eyes (:
and i can see through everything that you say cus you're my best friend.
and i'll be expecting my name when you win that "big" award in like idk, 4 years?
AND I WILL PROMISE YOU , to "always smile cus it'll bring good fortune" =)
i'm going to miss you so much =(
but just remember this,
"i loved you,
i love you,
and i will always forever love you in my heart."
