I'm just going to list stuff and explain
because today somehow impacted me immensely.
1) I am SO SO SO FUCKING thankful and happy
to have a mom like mine.
Not only her, but believe it or not,
even though I say I hate my sister everyday
and that I hate my dad too, I love them so much.
I haven't realized how much my family's going through
with this retarded economy in America.
I've taken my mom's money for my food and school stuff
and I've taken my dad's money for hang outs,
and I've taken my sister's money for car rides.
I have never felt so bad in my life before.
They've complained to me that I play too much
that I have too many friends and that I'm never studying.
But they've never told me that they're too broke for it.
They've never fucking told me that I'm spending too much money.
Even though they knew I was, they still let me go out.
They still bought me whatever I wanted and I couldn't
even do one simple thing they asked for.
All they asked for was to study, stop going on the computer too much,
stop texting too much, stop sleeping too much, etcetc.
They were so easy for me to do, much much more easier
than working full time, earning money, trying to survive in this world.
I've definitely learned my lesson.
And here's my sister, encouraging me to go out with friends
and to eat CherryonTop and walk around the neighborhood.
I am such a bitch.
2) I have this friend. I love her so much<3
We've known for not even a halfyear,
but I feel like I've known her since forever.
She's ALWAYS there for me, even though I never see her.
We're ALWAYS texting and writing each other letters.
We recently realized we had so much in common.
We both talk A LOT and look at everything the same way.
I have never felt so connected with anyone.
Our favorite color's yellow, we LOVE to talk, we can relate to
each other about our love life, we have similar celebrity crushes,
we both loved hilary duff back then, we shopped at the same places,
we're in love with boysbeforeflowers, and etcetc.
We FINALLY bought a journal and she already wrote me
about 6? 7? pages of the most randomest stuff.
I've never been so moved that a friend would take their time
to write me that much stuff and I've never thought a friend
could trust me as much as she does.
I've only dreamt of a friend like her and this is reality.
Love all, Trust few, Screw the rest.
I LOVE YOU RACHEL KANG <3
3) Want to know how my life is right now ?
It's perfect. Absolutely perfect.
Even though my family's going through a lot,
they still know how to smile and have a good time.
My friends? They're the best. No drama, just smiles & laughter.
That "special" boy? Nope, just silly little crushes that I laugh about.
These past days, I've done nothing but living my life.
Laughing, smiling, talking, yelling, silly fighting, insulting,
I couldn't ask for anything more.
I have everyone I need by my side.
I have everything I need by my side.
The only thing I need to do, is wait.
Wait for more happiness coming my way
and avoid the sadness trying to attack me.
It will definitely not get to me anymore,
I'm strong enough to fight it.
