i feel like the only person who's ever acted like
a best friend to me was kim chiu.
she was the only one i can go up to
venting about my problems without the
feeling that she might not care about anything.
when i share a happy story to her
she sounds so happy for me
and when i share a sad story to her
she's there to bring me back up if i fall down.
and she's definitely the only person
who tells me everything.
not only everything
but i'm the first person she tells everything to.
and when something happens to me
that i want to tell someone about
she's always the first person that pops into my head.
i've realized this & i'm sorry, but it's the truth.
this past week, i felt like total shit.
& my birthday was a piece of shit too.
this sunday's supposed to be super fun for me
but i just feel like someone's not going to be able to go
i feel like i'm nothing but trash that needs to be thrown away.
i feel like crying every single second for no damn reason.
i'm so jealous of all my friends who's in korea
complaining about everything they're going through right now.
i wish i was them right now cus they're achieving MY dream.
everyone seems so busy having fun
but i'm just sitting here doing my fucking summer work.
everyone's getting their schedule and being happy about
getting good teachers or sad that they have bad teachers.
but all i'm doing is waiting for my registration date
hearing everyone telling me that mine's so late
and that i'm going to get shitty teachers.
and for the past week i felt like telling everyone
to shut the fuck up.
and i have a horrible headache.
seriously, i haven't had a fuckmylife moment for a long time.
well, welcome back.
