i'm supposed

to be happy.

i'm supposed to be smiling and laughing and talking and jumping around.

why am i crying on my bed behind my family's back with a splitting headache.

something good happened and i'm supposed to be smilng.

something good happened and i'm supposed to be happy.

something fucking good happened and i'm fucking crying.

i feel like i'm guilty, doubtful, that i'm doing the wrong thing.

i told myself today was a good day.

i told myself today was a better day.

i told myself that i was happy

& the more i told myself lies

the more shittier my day got.

but yknow whats really funny.

i thought about LeeBesties and katie

i signed on and kathy&peter webcammed with me & they started their funny fights.

alex signed on and he imed me that he got pantsed.

matt signed on and he told me that he pantsed alex.

katie IMed me and talked about her megaman game.

then stephanie called me and told me she got hit in the face with a book

& guess what, i fucking cried cus i was so happy that i had

these retarded losers right next to me.

i have nothing more to say to them then a simple i love you <3